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It Changes a Person

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It changes a person, those few simple words.


Those few simple words spoken in but seconds.
Those few seconds that seemed to stretch forever.

 

In that one moment, she forgets how to breathe.
She doesn’t know what to think.
All she wishes is that it wasn’t her and that she just wasn’t there.

 

She simply doesn’t know what to do or how to feel.
She wants to run, far far away, but her feet are glued to the floor, heavy as lead.

 

To feel is the hardest, it would mean acknowledging the pain and letting it in. If she feels, she’ll fall apart and no one will be able to put the pieces back together again.

 

In the span of a second she thinks of all the time she’s had. In the span of a second, she thinks of all the times she’s had, both good and bad. She has flashes of memories, laced with regrets and pangs of worry about what the future will bring. All those emotions stirring within but all of them trapped by her skin constricting with every breath.

 

There is so much to comprehend as she slowly shuts down. Her ears listen yet her mind is numb and the words swirling around her don’t seem to make sense. Her eyes see, but they are blind and don’t comprehend.

 

She’s aware of the arm around her shoulder trying to be strong and to support, but she doesn’t feel it, it just doesn’t seem to belong.

 

She asks questions, questions whose answers she doesn’t really want to hear. She wants to retreat, to curl up and find a spot that will make her feel protected and safe.

 

But today that’s not to be. It just wasn’t meant to be.

 

Today, for her, it has all changed. For her, starting today, life will never be the same.

 

Is it the beginning of the end or the beginning of a new beginning? The beginning of hope and change or the beginning of despair and pain?

 

Her life has changed, all it took was but a few minutes. All it took was a few small words.

 

It’s cancer.

 

And another few words.

 

It can be beat.

 

 

*I wrote this post to celebrate the strength and the courage of all my patients. And yeah, they have courage even when they feel their world is falling apart. I have learned so much from all of of them.

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33 Responses to "It Changes a Person"

  1. Jackie says:

    This post comes at a emotional time, as my mom’s best friend’s just discovered her cancer levels have returned to a high/unsafe number. Thanks for articulated how they feel.

    1. Susie says:

      I am so sorry to hear that Jackie. Wishing your friend’s mom a complete recovery and both her and your friend the strength to get through each day as it comes.

  2. Ado says:

    Beautiful. My favorite sentence: Is it the beginning of the end or the beginning of a new beginning?
    Wow.
    So glad there are people like you in the world to give others hope.

    1. Susie says:

      Thank you. For me, that one sentence sums up cancer.

      And interestingly enough, the beginning of a new beginning is meant on so many levels. It can be someone who beats the cancer and appreciates life differently. It can be someone who is terminal but also uses every last day to the utmost. It can be someone who believes in afterlife and even if they don’t beat the disease, learn from it and grow from it and have a new beginning after they pass on.

  3. Mayor Gia says:

    Sad and kinda uplifting at the same time…

    1. Susie says:

      It is isn’t it. I think the frame of mind you are in when you read it takes you one way or another. I think something like this touches most of us in an uneasy way because it reminds us of our own mortality.

  4. laurel says:

    It can be beat! My mom beat it! Thank you for the post

    1. Susie says:

      I am so glad to hear that. May she live a long happy and healthy life.

  5. jamie says:

    Susie, this is such a wonderful post. It is so beautifully written that I can feel through your voice. Thank you for sharing this… I realise sometimes they are stronger than we are :)

    1. Susie says:

      Thanks Jamie.

      Are you talking about someone in particular?

  6. Sandra says:

    A very strong empathic post. And moving too. Thank you for reminding me how lucky I’ve been so far.

    1. Susie says:

      Thanks Sandra.

      Now I need you to rewrite that sentence and get rid of those two words at the end. (so far) You are lucky. Period. :-)

  7. Christie says:

    What an incredibly poignant post. Beautiful.

    1. Susie says:

      Thank you so much Christie.

    1. Susie says:

      Thank you. BTW-do you blog semi-anonymously? (Cause no where on your site did I find your name.) :-)

  8. Emily says:

    What a beautiful gift for your patients. Inspiring and strong.

    1. Susie says:

      Thank you Emily. I try my best to smile with them and give them positivity. I also do let them cry and express because that’s important as well.

  9. Delilah says:

    What a powerful post. My dad is a cancer survivor and I really identified with this. Nicely done.

    1. Susie says:

      Thanks Delilah. So glad your dad beat it. Mine did as well.

  10. This gave me chills. You crafted the feeling of that moment of diagnosis with your words. Very well done. Very inspirational. Ellen

    1. Susie says:

      Thanks Ellen. It took me a long time to get the right words.

  11. A lovely post, Susie. My uncle beat cancer too. It CAN be beat.

    1. Susie says:

      I’m so glad to hear about all the survivors. It can be beat.

      As much as it pains us though, sometimes even when cancer takes a life I often feel that the cancer has been beat because of all the change and growth many people go through after they are diagnosed. For me if someone passes on after coming to terms and acceptance with their death and were able to say their goodbyes and let their loved ones know how they feel, then the crushing demoralization cancer can have has been beaten as well.

      Not everyone gets to that point but I see more and more people putting up a really brave fight and winning.

  12. Having been with my mother when she was diagnosed with cancer, I can truly say you hit the nail on the head. Well done!

    1. Susie says:

      Thanks so much. It is hard to express in words because I think it is something visceral.

  13. January says:

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. But it absolutely CAN be beat. Each and everyone of my family members that had that horrendous diagnosis did. Sending prayers.

  14. Stephanie says:

    There’s so much strength in those last few lines.

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  16. vibhu says:

    Awesome words put on right place.I lost my mom 2 months back .Your words make me remember the ways she used to smile even in her pain.Thanks

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  18. Daniel Lagu says:

    We just live in this world like a blind we don’t know what will happen tomorrow God did not give us this knowledge. But your words give me more carriage to like in this vol-tail world.

    Daniel Lagu Africa.

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